yes, my birthday came and went…a glorious sunshiny day spent mostly outside, a long walk in the dunes with the menagerie, eli obsessively chasing the frisbee, hopping on my bike for a ride to the pier for breaky, peddling to the coffee shop, all in between moments of leisure on the deck. no work…well no work-work, lots of soul-work. the culmination of which is some powerful shifts in how i feel about things.
my birthday present to myself was signing up for danielle laporte & marie forleo’s selling your soul in NY next week. last year i gave myself some yoga teacher training, the year before…wine glasses (ha! see how evolved i’ve become?). I got the very last seat in the house for SYS. not surprising since i can be such a glacier about decisions, but it appears i was meant to be there. it’s important to me to have my way of thinking challenged, and the way danielle and marie have turned the cliche of “selling your soul” on it’s axis just really worked for me. i get it. yes, this is what i do.
always important has been this idea giving my gifts to be of service… and my passion for creating the space to learn and love through serendipity/my studio & doing the workshops for burn magazine will both be served when i shift into new ways of thinking about them. but mostly for me it’s about owning my own value…not just giving lip service to this idea, but truly a shift in understanding that what i do is important. you know, the sacred part of being a sacred facilitator.
plus, i’m extra-stoked for the trip because i get to hang with two of my besties…madeline & deanna…who have NEVER MET! so this is good, good, GOOD juju all around.
the more powerful shifts came in matters of the heart. all the writing i’ve been doing is releasing me from burdens that i was voluntarily carrying. i can feel my hands opening, my grip on the past softening and with that my heart is feeling more open and expansive and full of warmth. i’m feeling ready to reach out and explore a new, better and evolved pathway of being with those i care about. what a lesson! once agan my way of thinking has kept things too small, kept things in their cozy little ruts. i understand now that if things are going to change, i need to be the change agent – all in the name of healing and love and friendship.
the hardest part about shifting is that sometimes you are the first and the challenge then is waiting for others to find their way to meet you there, meanwhile holding the space for them without losing hope or your own clarity. other times you are the last, and this has its own challenges, not the least of which is the suffering. i’m not sure which i am in this case…i can see it both ways. all i know is that once the shift occurred it was this very clear, body-mind-heart-soul feeling of AHA! and i feel easily able to put my new energy out there to align us all and make my intention of forgiveness manifest.
um. so yeah…
41 you’re off to a pretty good start.